head's up: this post is not about john

i know i know, this is john's blog. i blogged about him last time and i'll do it again next time. but right now, ...this weekend, ... i have something else to say. and, in a way, it does tie in to his illness. it ties in in the way that his illness has taught me what's important. brought it to a head. a clear focus. i notice more now. now i live life more, ... aware. conscious.
let me tie it all in.

so this weekend i was laboring, ha, on labor day weekend. three days of cleaning, gleaning, organizing, throwing things away, getting things ready for donation, etc.

here's what was brought to my attention: life speeds past me whether i like it or not.

here's what brought that to my attention:

• donating the baby monitors
• throwing away the fat crayons, the kind that toddlers use
• donating the baby blankets
• sitting on my porch and looking out over a sea of adult sized bikes in the yard. not a training wheel or kid bike in sight
• receiving the letter that told me what 'homeroom' isaiah would be in on wednesday
• taking down the winnie the pooh decorations and planning to put up sports ones
• getting rid of the tubby toys
• noah saying, 'we could probably get rid of half of what's in that toy box, we don't really play with those anymore'

i didn't think i could take one more 'grown up' thing and then mary brings me her dora the explorer blanket and says, 'you can donate this. i don't need it anymore. i don't like dora now that i'm older'.

i was just about to fall into a pool of 'parent of tween' despair when she added, ...'it'd be diffferent if it was like, ...holly hobby. holly hobby is waaaaay more grown up.'

phew! i just about did a happy jig. =)

k

ps: john's working a 14 hour shift today. please pray for strength. he is feeling weak and is due to start a second round of parasite cleanse tomorrow.