random updates

string of random thoughts by kim:

so john has been working a bizillion hours due to low staff numbers. he is trying to hire but people either a) don't show up for the interview or b) don't take the job b/c they say it sounds like a lot of work. huh? i don't get people who schedule a job interview but can't be bothered to call and cancel if they've changed their mind. i don't get people who lament to him that they can't pay their bills but then turn down a job offer b/c "it sounds hard". uhh, yes. work is hard. but unemployment is hard too. whatev. i digress. anyway, point being, he has been working a lot of hours and not seeing the kids at all and overall just tired so, prayers for strength (and staff!) would be greatly appreciated.

speaking of working so many hours, ...he did not start this next round of parasite cleanse. i can't emphasize enough how important it is that he complete all 4 rounds (only 1 is done) before we see the naturopath again in november. but i understand that he feels like doo-doo when he's doing it and, working so many hours, feeling like constant doo-doo is not ideal. (again with the request for prayers for staff). it really is important that he complete this 'treatment'. until he gets the parasites under control everything else is sort of diminished (strength, health, patience, etc).

speaking of naturopathy, i am 9 days out from completing my first term of school for it. needless to say, ... finding time for that has been challenging. i'm fighting for it though b/c as much of a pain in the arse as it is to find time for school, the knowedge that i am getting may truly help john's health (not to mention the kids and me). so, i forge on. (insert dramatic battle music here).

speaking of dramatic battle music, ... ha. no i really don't have anything to say about that but it'd be funny if i did. oh no wait, let me try...

speaking of dramatic battle music, ... i feel like i should play some when i work out to jillian michaels '30 day shred' workout dvd, which john has been doing with me for the past 2 days! (now THAT was transition, baby!). ok so really, john joined me in exercising yesterday and today. while that may not sound like a big deal, it is. it absolutely is. vasculitis can be exacerbated by physical activity and until just last week the doc would not clear john to exercise for that reason. last week though he got the ok and at first i noticed that he was kind of pensive, and who can blame him. but then yesterday i found him using my dvd and today he did it with me. i am so proud that he faced his fear and now i seem to have, in all my codependent glory, adopted that fear for him. yup, i picked it up and am nursing it like a little bundle of worry. that's no good. so, i am giving it to God. i have to. john has to. we cannot live under this purpetual cloud of impending gloom. chronic illness/pain sucks. it just does.
...and then you have to learn to live anyway.

worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, it empties today of its strength.
(i have no idea who said that but i have it on a bookmark from barnes and noble so it must be good stuff).

so, today, john and i did not worry. we were strong.
please pray that we maintain that. it is hard work to say the least.

thanks.
k